emo, again

okay, again. im feeling damn emo..
i hate myself , hate myself to do all the wrong things.. i just lost the ability to think.. about wat is right and wat is wrong. i just felt so bad.. is loving someone a wrong thing to do? why cant i just get wat i want? why issit that everything i dun want something, they kept coming to me.. and when i need them... they just dun allow me to have them?

its so hard to describe my feelings. everything seems like a dream for me.. seems fake to me.. but why? why do i have to fake myself.? bluff myself to believe them all? trust? wat is trust? love? what is love? everything seems so complicated..
everything just SUCKS for me.
i feel like taking a break.. a break from this world.. from anyone, everyone, school, projects, work.. simply every shit.
yes. im damn tired. tired..
who should i trust?
or am i better off my own?
A, B, or C?
D?
or nth at all?
fuck all this shit....
im a farking B*

ROARSSSS...
i miss uuuuuu....

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

[Chorus]

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...