helo

Hello!
im finally here to blog the useless blog of mine.

reply to tags:

elrin: oi come sch leh i miss you
haha~ thanks for missing me~ will go der~ haa~

shania: hello babe! exchange links? hope ur doing well now. tc!
Okays! Linked~ yeah, im doing fine. see u ard =)))

shijie: i got sudden urge for egg sandwich.ahhahah(:
i know u dun have the urge now, but i'll stil reply ur tag. LOL. =x

minqi: nowadays got alot of projects ar..lets jiayou tgt!! WHAHAHAHA (:love.love<3
gonna be over SOON =))

sky: nope, at home very boring. go school = stress come but time flew fast oso
of cos u like sch la 6As lehs,. hao lian loh~~ LOL.. see u in the finals. lol.

huiting: hello!!!!!!hahaha..*smile*
hello da xiang xiao jie... long time no see ah! hahahaa. miss you

6 Jul 08, 01:25joanna: ijayou!!! I MISS U!!!
6 Jul 08, 01:25joanna: ijayou!!! I MISS U!!!
i know u really miss me, so den u come tp look for me~ WAHA.. BHB~~ come TP more la hor~ take me tour the sch~ =x

katie: SMILE! ah pig !! HAHAs
Smiling ah cat!! hahahahhaaa

SO i finally reply to tagsss. =x

okay~ i think i am lazy to post.
so i shall stop here
continue tml.
buhbye~
gagaga~

ehlow`

HI~!!
have not been blogging since @!$#@%$ days.. damn lazy and moodless to blog. haha.
okay~ wat have i been doing recently? pratically, slacking, project, working, schooling and sleeping.
now i dun feel like typing~ just now i was like so enthu to blog. even open up photoshop to edit my pictures, But i close it after editing 3 of them. i think i got 30plus overdue photos? or maybe more~~
okay.. actually its quite hard studing and working at the same time. its like no off day like day. weekday sch, weekend work... however i think, if i dun work.. i will be very "xinku".. too used of life being like a "so called rich ass" spend money like water.. i think i've changed abit... this month. i think i spend $200plus nia~ quite okay u see, unlike last month... $1000. next pay cheque coming soon~ hit my sales target... more $$, haa.. baby's birthday soon also.. dunno wat to buy for him... cant spend too much also... cos his bday my pay haven come~ sadd~ hahhaa... August will be a difficult month.. cos july i only work 6days nia.. August bday= no money~ =((...

Alrite, i think everytime i blog is about money money and money~ lol..
School~
had not been attentive during lecture and tutorials. i think next end sem test i will suffer alot... Sometimes its really hard u see. too tired~ i think few days back.. i broke down~ last sunday i think... den talk to baby~ cried abit~ but i am alright already~ =).... den again, like tuesday? i quarrel with him,... cos i tell him i very "fan" but i duno wat i "fan" at... den i cant control myself jiu ask him dun ask me all this shit watever... i think i am making myself "fan" only~ LOL.. depress? and everytime when we quarrel, i will have the urge to feel like giving up this r/s... but it only for that moment only~ i hope u uds my dear~ hope that u will hold on me and nv let me go no matter wat, cos i think i cant live without u~~ hope u read this and uds me... maybe i just need time to manage my time better, more activities to destress myself...
however, i think i am still very fortunate to have many ppl who cares abt me to support me from behind, like my parents... my mother, tolerating my temper when i am having fucking moodswing... when i am having bad mood i am damn nasty~~ however, i dun really have moodswing infront of friends.. but only to my family and bf~ so sorry abt that... i dun mean it~~
and my father, who dun fail to force himself up to drive me to school everytime i am gonna be late for school~ and sometimes my sister have to tolerate me for my attitude.. sometime i will just anyhow scold her when i bad mood~ sorry yanyan~ i dun mean it~~ all this love from my family, i think its damn hard for me to repay~ cos i am not a loving person.. i dun really show love~ blah blah~

and not forgetting my bf, baobei, baby, dear~ all the names i call him~ he's everything~~ i think i really cant imagine life without him~ a little sweet talk from him makes me feels better.. i think no one have ever see or experience my fucking temper/ moodswing before other than him~ i think i am really "kong bu" also~ like scold him for nth, assume things, demand this and that, not happy with everything, even the public, whole face "smelly" for the whole day when with him, attitude him, ignore him, dun talk to him when he talk to me, tell him nth nth nth, and more la~~~ happy that we can last this long~ hope i can treat him better~~

as for friends, thanks for the care and concern.. thanks to gladys and katie.. for msn-ing me to ask what happen to me when i wrote "in deep depression" as my nick. so after they msn me~ i delete the nick.. cos felt better le~ i think i am really bad in expressing feelings... i wont even bother finding someone to talk to when i am not feeling good.... i think its a damn bad habit to keep everything in myself... and eventually end up breaking down one day~ however, i think i am learning to change.. i tried telling baby about what i am unhappy/sad/angry watever shit about... and thanks minqi for the tag~ and also.. to everyone who will always be there for me~~

i think this post is abit emo la~~
okay. i think i gona sleep soon~
blog again soon~~ =)