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hmm..
Today.. nth much happens in school.. just that i burst into tears during physics lesson..
that benjamin ooi.. that mmf.. farker.. keep saying me.. he sucks big time lohh.. cbk.. keep saying bout km.. nb.. what he knows..?! fark.. compare him and his ex.. with me and ex.. farker loh.. nb.. so what they have long lasting relationship.. in between.. what he does behind her.. what a bastard loh.. WHAT THE HELL HE KNOWS LOH.. HE DUN HAVE THE RIGHT TO EVEN SAE ME~~~~ at least when i was with km.. i knew my heart and person is totally his.. and that farker dun have the right to say any shit bout me.. and he doesnt need to compare what is "PAIN" to me.. i swear i suffer more than he doess.. he cb loh.. and i really cried so hardd lohh.. i tried to hold every single tear ler loh... and what he always does is keep reminding me bout the sad things that happens to me and km.. wtf loh... cant he spare a thought for me..?! for what he was the one who started me and km~~ the farking thingss he does.. whatever shit.. im not goingg type it all here.. and i dun wanna cry anymore.. my tears are all dry.. my heart already broken into bits and pieces.. all i wanna do is to forget km like how i forget that farker..
i am really tiredd.. tired of looking at k nick everysingle day to know what is happening to him.. tired of thinking of him every second.. tired of everyshit.. tired of being liking him so much.. tired of being unable to forget.. now i want nth.. nth at all.. i dun even need him to return my care.. haiis... seriously i dunno what i wants.. every single day tears had been falling because of him.. maybe i am being to emotional.. or maybe.. i see his sad nick.. i feels sad too.. ARGGG.. whatever shit.. i am really going to forget him ler.. i tired all the ways to patch things up because i knew my feeling.. but whatever i did has gone down to the drain.. nth works.. maybe.. its really a mistake..

i give up~
what i ask for now is to see u happy every day km~~
i hope this will be the last post for u... i dun wanna be drown by my own tears anymore...
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiix

haiis.. i miss him so much~
1 week nv talk to him ler..
haiis.. sometimess its really so hard to forbid myself to think of him..
but i am trying my best ler..
i hope i would forget him and put my heart onto studies and another person..
but.. haiis..
i think i will still think of him la~~..
>.< T_T haiis..

Ming, i miss you
i really do..
wo der xiaomayii

gaga

hii.. new skin again...
featuring the "niu niu" with no noes.. i added two dots on it.. =x...
its 4.10am rite now.. lala..
its been so long since i have a "proper" update.. these few weeks i've been mapling and few days ago started 02jam-ing.. =x.. im so addicted to gamess but i know everything shall come to an end.. PRELIMs are less the 2weeks.. and right now im still in the june holiday mood.. ma fagging god.. im turning from human to really a pig liao lohhh... *sad*.. in school the atmosphere makes me so dun feel like studying.. ppl ard are all sleeping and back home i am always infront of the monitor doing stupid thingss.. haiis.. garr.. i really need to do something about it already.. forbid myself of looking at the comp.. force myself to look at the textbooks..? ahh.. i have nth more to blog alreadyy.. actually wanted to do my dnt folio.. but i think it should be drag to tml ler.. so not in the mood.. and my ucler is such a ass.. so big. i put so mani salt it still doesnt heal.. wat a torture to myself.. f... actualli i am not quite looking forward to my bdae lohh.. for i think.. some would be studying at home instead of celebrating..? i dunno.. hopes not.. or maybe because of studying some forget..?? lol.. lala..shall stop here.. byee~

ma fav song.. lala

Fort Minor - Where'd you go
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debatin
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin and hatin' and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home

I'm sorry I didnt mean to call you
But i couldnt fight it
I guess i was weak and couldnt even hide it
And so i surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times i said im gonna live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but theres something i need you to know
that deep inside me , i feel like dying
i have to see you its all that im asking..
Baby, give me back my fantasies
the courage that i need to live
the air that i breathe..
living without you, my world becoming so empty
my days so cold and lonely
and each night i taste the purest of pain..
i wish i can tel you that im feeling better everyday without you
that i didnt hurt when you walked away..
but to tell you the truth.. i cant find my way
that deep inside me i feel like im dying
i have to see you, its all that im askingg...
where'd you gone, i miss you so......

what makes me sad is that i still miss u the same,
still likes u the same..
what makes me really sad is that i cant seem to forget u..
i think.. i will nv let u go...

boring

Since my comp suck so much that the farking firewall disallow me to log into maple and continue training my mayi.. i shall blog about today~...
today.. had my N oral examination.. although at last it turn out fine for me but.. its the first time i shivered during and exam.. lol.. even before i met the examiners i already shiver like hell.. my arms were on the table when was given 10minutes to see thru the question.. i see the table shaking loh.. and.. i cant control it.. lmao.. my mind was so totally blank when the saw the picture conversation.. the first thing on my mind was "HOW TO TRANSLATE TO ENGLISH~??!!" lol loh.. then 7 out of 10 minutes i was thinking the same shit of how to translate loh... and when i see the table shaking.. i felt worse.. lol... after that 10minutes.. i walk towards the two examiners.. i pass my nirc.. den.. it DROPPED~... shivering hands... lol.. lala.. i just read thru the passage anyohow den luckily.. the examiner look pleasent.. " Qing Qie" den that moment i felt more relax loh... my farkkk... lalallalaaa.... ok. i've got nth else to write..
laastly.. happy birthday to mrkrishnan.. thou he wont get to see this.. alalal... bye bye

hmmm

lalala~
here to blog.... its been ermm~ ard 3weeks since i last update..
lol... im a PIG like what u ppl say.. hernsss~~ soo i shall not blog..
lalallalaa.... jokingg...
Recently.. i've been playing maple la.. so... i have no mood to blog.. lol.. =p..
hmmms... also there isnt much special matters that happens.. so i've got nth to blog on.. hmmms..
ytddd~~
ABC made me uds love..
no love = no love...
the feeling of with love and no love is so different...
so... i really really need to let HIM go.. cox.. i finally uds how he felt..
ABC HIM ABC HIM ABC HIM~!!! lalala.. i dun care anymore...
cox.. i have no love with ABC..
but i am with love with HIM.. but HIM got no love with me..
LOL~!!!


if theres two person u HAVE to chose one from..
would u chose someone who loves u really much but u dun even like ..
or someone who you lovess really much but u know theres already no more hope..???
sighh**