sianxx

well, chatted with him last night.. and today.. dun wish to go school.. cox i feel that going to school is a waste of time duh.. =x
sorta bored.. wanted to self-study.. but im damn lazyy
so im not doing anythingg.. just tired of everythingg..=p


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*shall i really ban myself from touching this comp..?
im making a skin againn.. and its up.. im not studying...
BAN me plsss..=x




Although what we ever shared was really heavenly,
but life still has to go on..
the only way for me to go on is to delete all the history of u..
making them into the most beautiful memories..
i love u i cant deny..
but.. i know u would nv be back...
NEVER..
=(

u left me broken
in a island alone

haiss

Can't you see
You mean everything to me
You are in my heart
You have touched my soul
You were all I'll ever need
And it hurts so bad
Not to have you by my side
Nothing's right;
And I cried all night
Just because i thinks of u..


I'll be waiting for you till the sun don't shine
I will wish on a star to make you mine
I'll be dreaming all night that you're by my side
I'll be waiting for you
waiting for you till the end of time
Can't you see that I need you in my life
You're all that I want; I can't deny


Love is hard
When the days can seem so far
We were both inseparable
And now we're torn apart
I refuse to try again
To love to someone new
Cuz what we shared was heavenly
Like a rose that's in full bloom


You make me so happy
I never thought I'll lose you
Your love was and still is
The only thing I run to

Every minute of every hour
i want you to know tat i am waiting for u



You are the first I think of each morning when I rise.
You are the last thing I think of each night when I close my eyes.
You are in each thought I have and every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger with every move I make.
And I know my love for you will continue to burn bright for the
next monthss or years..
i am not gonna forget u..
Not gonna forget all the moment we ever shared
Im glad u were ever mine

I am missing u like hell..

steamboat

21st April o6
went to sing k after sch as oral is cancelled.. Oral also can be cancelled derr.. lol ritess..? sing 2h.. den went to cp slack.. talk alot, chattedd la.. den home sweet home..

22nd April o6
went out at 12+.. actually we're going to tjc openhouse der.. budden we took the wrong side of bus 81.. so ended up in serangoon instead of tampanies.. den its alreaddy late ler.. so we no choice.. went to marinasquare instead.. walk ard, saw zach.. den went LJ.. den walk ard.. my leg damn sore la.. in the evening went to eat steamboat.. 3h +.. after tat slacked ard cityhall.. den home.. quite fun la.. but i lazy type all thingss out.. =x..
msg-ed him ard 2.35.. den he 9.30den reply.. fark la.. he dun care den still bothers to reply for watt.. damn hell lohh.. i hate this can.? i didnt reply after tat too.. maybe 7hours later i shall.. but most probably.. i wont.. cause i enough of his shit already.. its his problem, not mine.. i shall not even bother if he dun really care.. fark him~ i not gonna care anymore..

tired~

hmms, im so bored right now..
did not touch my dnt at all after i am home.. just sat infront of my comp eating and eating and still eatingg.. haven even bathe.. =x.. im so pig la.. so lazy to do anything.. and even lazy to sleep too.. my head is so arse heavy now.. my eye lids too.. felt like closing alreadyy.. but i m afraid if i sleep i wont be able to wake up in time to finish my dnt.. and i stay online for i am still waiting for him to talk to me on msn.. its been 4days since i last chatted with him.. sorta good.. but he dun even to bother to open a conversation and say hi and start chatting with me.. does he still cares..? time heal everythingg.. i still need him to care... u know..? he know..? no he dont.. he only care for himself i think.. why must i suffer so much for him..??hell it la =) somehow life still sucks so much without him.. but i how i will walk it thru all by myself.. solve all my pains myself.. make decision all by myself and not being influence by him.. and so my emotion wont influence on my studies.. i swear i am gonna study hardd ya... =p.. alritess life still goes on=) cheers..

tml might be going to sing k again.. =x..

New skin

changed my layout.. spent around 2hours to make it this time.. cox i got not much ideas.. somethingg simple.. changed my tagboard to flashbox.. do tag..=(

school as boring as usual.. nth much.. my life's boring too..
yea, it better to be boring like this den problematic when im with him..? exam are round the corner.. 13days time.. and i.. not prepared at all... i gonna work HARD okay.. =p... shall ban myself from this comp.. if not i m not gonna studyy.. Ban me BAN ME~ =p
some picturess took weeks ago.?







some Zi Lian pics


My baobeii bearr bearr..


pig and piggy =p
thats all..
Byebye =)

promisee

i nv shall post rubbish anymore..
經不起困難的愛情不值得我流淚
=)

life still goes on..
i dun need anyone to keep me alive..
as long as frens are still ard.. i m contented..
<3

shall post again after i finish my homework.. =p

haiiss

i really dun know wat i really wants..
my feelings for him is love + hatred..
i feelss really suckss sometimess...
i cant forget him.. i really cant...
and i realli dont want to.. i really feel so damnn hell pain..
i want him back to me.. i really wish to have him back to walk thru all this pains he causedd..
i dun want to face it all by myself...
i cant face the fact that he's gone.. nobody knowss..
to him:
im really sorry... for i said so much to make u so fed up..
i really doesnt know wat i want..
i didnt meant to irritatess u in all wayss..
all i want is to have u backk..
im really sorryy..
i used the wrong method to love u..
i dun know if u will see this..
but i realli wantss u to know that
i'll be here waiting..
i really gratefull for wat u gave in the past
Cuz what we shared was heavenly
Like a rose that's in full bloom
You make me so happy
i nv thought i'll lose u..
ur love wass and still is the only thing i run to..
Every minute of every hour..i want you to know tat i am waiting for u..

sucker

U are the cause of all my pains...
i hates u..
to the core..
TKM u farker~

kianming~

i feels so pain right now..
sunday april o9 2oo6, 12.27am
i miss him so much..
so so much..
tears started to fall down again..
i really miss him...
i failed to control my tears, my heart, my mind..
i feels so suckss right now..
i really feelss soo soo sucks..
i hate myself so much
so so much..
hate myself to have fallen so deep..
hate myself to not being able to forget him..
i really hate myself..
i really do..
i really dont know what should i do..
why is'nt he by my side when i need him so so much..
why isnt he there when i miss him so much..
why doesnt he get online and chat with me..
i will feel better that wayy..
i really so sick of living without him..
i realli feelss so sickk..
he is the ever first i loved so deep..
why must i fall so deep..
why must he hurt me so deep..
i really feel so pain..
and no one is by my side..
helping me..
easing my pain..
i feels so helpless right now..
i really wants him back..
i really wish him to be backk..
i reallyy wishh..

wo ku ye ku ler..
di shen xia qi der qiu ler..
ta hai shi bu ken hui lai..
wo zhen der hen xing ku..
wei shen mer ta yao rang wo ai shang ta..?

wo mei you zi ge tan lian ai..
why must he bring me into love ..?
and kick me outta it..??

wo zhen der hen xiang hen xiang ta..
zhen der bu xiang ba ta wang diao..
bu xiang wang diao na xie xie mei li de hui yi..
wo zhen der hen xi huan ta..
hen ai ta..
kianmingg~.....
ni zhi bu zhi dao..?
zai wo xing li..
you duo mer de tong..??

i know u would nv be back..
but i am gonna wait..
o4o2o6.. the happiest day..
11o3o6.. the saddest day..
i promise.. i will use one whole year to wait for u..
i swear to god and everyone.. swear to myself..
i will not fall in love with other ppl untill 11o3o7..
i swear...
becox of uu~...



=(

lifesarks

6u!wu\-/!>l,
i miss u...
so much..

i have the right to write all i want here

its my blog

even if anyone is not happy

i no longer care anymore

cox ever since 11o3o6

im already dead inside

i can no longer feel anymore

i miss himm

lazy to blog...

i miss him so much..

i dunno why..

haiis..

ohh

hii...
updates again... shall update bout today nia...
morning rotting at home.. sorta moodswingg.. and pissed.. plus feel really bad jiu shi liao.. furious watsoevva.. i just hate chatting with that ex.. everytime we like quarelling , attitude-ingg la.. he simply suckss can..?? cruel, heartless and all.. JK la~...
went to marina square at the evening.. with my sis.. walked ard.. saw quite alot of familar facess.. i bought shimin bdae pressie ler.. =p.. me myself bought nth much.. nth cheap caught my eye.. those tat did.. i cant afford then..



so in love with it... gonna buy it sooner or later..
saw a puma belt quite nice.. leather plus diamond-ish puma logo.. $49.. still considering~!! opps.. hmms.. nth much ler.. pictures timee..



my sis and i..


Zi lian pics




stop here..

im really sickk of it..

sick of everythingg..

i really wish to run away..

but right inside..

i cant make it..

i regretted the first and the last choice i made..

the first choice of being with u..

the last choice for breaking..

i feels so miserable..

but u simply dun know..

dun care..

dun giv a damn..

and continue lying and acting good infront of me..

u nv know how much i hates u..

and how would u know how much u hurt me..

u sucks till the end of time..

i hope i can curse u till u die..

but my heart dun let me do so..

i hate u..

i hate myself..

this is for u.. tkm