hillo~

hi people out there...
im doing fine :)
just working and working... spending and spending....
i wish i could really like throw my atm card away and stop spending like water luhh....
within 10days... after my pay day, i spent away $700..... grrr... $300 spent on a river island heel, 3 tops and another black pump... the other $400. i dunno fly where liao....
i am a person without self control.....
and i will not be controlled by anyone thou.....
i think i really had to force myself to learn the hard way and learn to save my hard earn money....
jiayou for myself........
;(
i still miss chilling late.. drinking..
and specially being with u...
i still miss u despite how much u gonna hurt me unknowingly... how much u lie, how much to find excuses..... how much u do the things i dun like....
i think i just love the way u are.... maybe its crush.. or maybe its truely love that makes me do so much for someone like u....
thou i dun know ur true feelings.... but i can feel a little... if not ... *secret*
maybe its me that u blah blah blah...
or maybe is my silly thinking...
but... i promise i'll try...... if not.........
i hope ur dick drop off....
ahahhahahaa
kiddinggggggg.....

miss everyone out there... everyone who can see this post...... :)

TAGS reply

23 Sep 08, 10:52 MINQI: cheers** ME: cheerssss

20 Sep 08, 12:23 shijie: madness!!!!haha

20 Sep 08, 12:23 shijie: haha!you relax lahh!haha. return 100 you spend 167 ME: i know i am sick... but thats me :)

19 Sep 08, 23:44 weihang: CHEER UP & TAKECARE! =) ME: i will take care der :)

19 Sep 08, 23:42 joanna: meimei!!! cheer up!!! jiayou!!! see u real soon!!! =p ME: hahaa... wo hui der.... miss u duhhh...

18 Sep 08, 11:48 shijie: hey. you feeling better not?its not worth it over guys kay!CHEERS!(: ME: i am always good... LOL

nb~

haha. those guys are useless la....
liar..
owe ppl money.. 500 somemore.... today i damn happy i forced him return me 100 first..
den i went to river island to buy a $167 heels... gagaga....
i happy jiu hao.. dun care~~
agnes B cutiepie= playboy... wat the hell is the world...
where are the good guys?
lol.....
fuck off la~ those nbcb~
ahhahaa
now i like scold wat jiu scold wat... PRIVATE PROFILE..
nanny poo poo...
my nbcb EX owe me $400 la..... nbcb... fuck and die la....
lend shi hou so easy... ask him return like want his life..... farking excuses and NBCB attitude problem...
fuck offf la hor la hor..... go eat shit la..... bloody hell..... hahhhaahaaa
shuang...
curse u till u die.. but return my money first hor~~~ humphs~~~ =p...
hate him loh......
next time i die hard also wont lend anyone money liao la...
hao xin mei hao bao one... only make myself xinku...
go mix with ur fucking butch friend and learn gamble more and lose more money la hor~
=p=p=ppp=p=p=p=p=p..

and to liar. hope ur LJ drop off... hahahhhhaa...
kidding la...
mad liao la me..
lol

and agnes b cutie pie... stay cute... hahah... he nv offend me la... hahhahaaa...

sentosa tml.. tanning tanning... =))

and... happy bday to weilin... =p

hais

为什么要 说谎?

=(

happy birthday

happy 17th birthday to shijie... see u later =)

duhh!

hmmm~
thanks for the tags... i will try to be happy....
alrites.....
shall just start from thursday.. 11sep08
okay... started my day off badly...
suppose to report work at 12pm but i woke up ard 12.. woke up and OH SHIT!
rush my way to bath and rush out of house we a very painful stomach.... wanted to take cab but no avail at that point of time... i walk all the way to e other side of punggol.. and at that point of time i felt totally devastated... late le.. nvm.. stomach still so pain... heart still so pain... nvm.... wanted force myself to go to work because of money... but my mind is totally unstable..... i walk to the other side of punggol for half an hour but totally no cab lo...... i felt like a mess and i broke down to cry again in the middle of no where...... called my counter manager and tell her that i am feeling so damn unwell... i cried while talking to her half way again and it shock her.... so sorry... but i am really glad to have someone who cares about me like how she does....... =)
after i tell her tat i am not reporting work... those farking cab comes one by one.... felt like fark loh... den jiu keep thinking and thinking blah blah stuff.. i cried my way home on the road.... so afraid that anyone will see...... haisss.... =(....... why issit so hard to let go still???
at that point of time... i only think of my *tata*..... but i know he wont bother...... but nvm.... i'll do anything for *tata*......

forget bout the sad stuff.
so i reach home after tat and pack my room abit.. threw away 3big bags of rubbish... also.... a photo of the past us.

no point keeping ler .. =(..
pack pack pack.. den 7plus went katie house play MJ..
i won 18$... haaha...
den took bus home ard 11.45pm...

today... 12sepo8 Friday
went to work at 9.30
end work 6.30... forgot the time loh... actually is 5.30 end one..... haha.. but nvm... got sale...
train down to serangoon... when reach serangoon station ler i act pro loh... gu yi walk another exit.. lol...... den i lost my way.. haha.. cant find the correct bus stop... lol.... and i kept walking further loh... stubborn me... knowing its wrong still keep walking dun want turn back... lol.... end up i gave up finding and took cab... lol... sian 1/2.... but nvm.... reached chomp chomp and met up with gladys, huiitng, celestine, katie.... haha... they ordered alot of food.. i just sat at the table waiting.... got prawn mee, satay, popiah, oyster omellette, sugarcane juice, chicken wing, carrot cake, sotong, stringray, i think thats it. haha.. quite full.... next time eat again k.....? haha.. den den... played MJ at my house with glad, shuyi, and xiaoben that sucker... lol... they left ard 12... lonely again... abit emo again.... cos i cant be alone... i will think alot when i alone.... wanted go drink.. but he dun want acc me... sian 1/2.. nvm.. now i already no emo ler.... hope i can be not emo forever...
haha...
saw cute guys this few days... one is kiehl's der model, the other one at kbox ehub.. and i saw my agnes b cute guy at my counter today.. hahahhahaaa...... he walk into robinsons again.. lol...
haha... maybe i should think of the agnes b guy... other that my past, or that *tata*.... hehehe! evil laugh

the official break

hi ppl! im back blogging..
just came back from chalet.. so tired..... busy-ing doing food and stuff... finally 5A met up again..

okay~
ermss..
im now single..
an official break up few days back...
i think this is not really a very very bad thing thou.. cos i cant see the road infront of us anymore.. although i admit i not totally no more feelings.. but i guess i have to get over it.... though my tears still drop now when i am typing this. but i know everything should have an ending if not the hurt and pain will be even deeper...
i think... i really have to get over it, get over him, get over this 2years relationship~ =(
although im really really sad..... but i just cant bring myself to hold onto this r/s anymore.. cos i cant feel his love/his effort to love me... maybe its really not his fault to make me feel so damn neglected all this while... maybe im too demanding... i just want someone there to take the long rides home with me after work.. seeing other couples i felt like a real failure... im so sorry for everything.... i dun really know who neglect who first... but since everything has turn out to be like this.. nth can be changed anymore.... once the love fades... its so hard to force it back anymore... im really vexed cos i still do miss him..... but..... i know this would be the better choice in the future.... hope so.....

last few days had been drinking..
sat night drank german beer.. den party world drink... return home late night.
sun watch ben play mj with matthew and co. ton the whole night.... watch them playing the whole night w/o doing anything.... i just dun wanna be alone at night... being alone at night is the worse thing ever... u will think of the past and cry and cry....
watch till monday morning.. eat mac breakfast for 10cents. cos i paid 10cents. duh~ ben treat... after breakfast... went home and went out again to giant meet joanna buy chalet de food and stuff... heavy~~~ den cab to my house and started marinating the chicken and blahs... after joanna go home.. night time went to drink with ben and karsan..... i think 4cup beer nia i already abit drunk ler.... damn hell bad mood...
aftertat got forced to go home by farking ben.. im already in a damn bad mood his still force me go home.... den share cab with karsan.... den tears like flowing down like its free..
i didnt wanna cry..... and i seldom cry infront of other ppl...... karsan like got shocked den call ben and blahs.......
reach home bath... den head damn heavy...... lights off and sleep.... at least... when i drink i sleep better.. so i wont think of anything.....
next day. which is tuesday.. woke up at 7am plus do stuff and fall back to slp again..... den meet joanna to buy those stringray sotong and prawn.. den back home to marinate and stuff again.....
those sotongs are really gross loh... one even have a index finger long size fish inside the sotong de stomach... we scream like hell.. lol.. but its fun.. =x...... den prep and stuff meet deon and yuqian den cabbed down to downtown east chalet..... blah blah blah... wait for ppl bbq for me eat... bo bian cos i bbq sure chaota so haha~ den night time open martel drink... at first add coke to it... but got laugh by that sucker... played scissors paper stone with him... i loss like continuously 6times... so drink martel with ice... damn suay... but nvm.... after tat slack awhile den walk to ehub see see... nth much..... den go back chalet again they watch emily rose dvd... i half sleeping half watching.... duh... head heavy again... but not as bad as on monday... cos i cried before drinking also..... luckily, nth make me cry ytd during chalet.. haha...............
sooo... today.......
slack till 9plus wake up... ben and matthew still like pig sleeping.. hai everyone wait for them.... lol.... den 10plus jiu check out ler... sad.... =(...... after check out go mac.. den slack ard till 11 went ehub sing k..... 4person but we got a damn big room..... =) and now i am back home again..... i just hate being alone.... being alone = being emo........ i am so tired now.. but i dun feel like sleeping.. cos i am afraid if i slp now .. night time i cant sleep already.... den will think again....... tonight also cant drink ler.. tml work.... haiss.. sian................. find things to do bah.... buaiii!






now, my skin condition so bad, my eyes so puffy, my body so weak and my heart so pain~
really hope to get over everything soon.........

yos

Yo hi ppl!
here to blog~
i hit my personal target ytd~ wootss... extra money.. $$
went back to nan chiau on friday, celebration of teachers' day.. saw a few teachers. krishnan, mrs chia, mrs tan, hmmm... i cant rmb ler...
aftermaths went chinatown sing k.. 4hours..
damn long nv sing ler.. quite crazy.. haa...
till 6plus reach cp.. den head home packed and went hougang point there der condo swimming.. abit weird loh... cos its still 7th month but we're swimming at night.. under water cant see anything other den other's leg... like damn weird and abit scarry.. hahhaaaa....
next day.. SAT.
went work... nth much.. but work OT.. i earned $150 for that day.. so shuang~
den SUN.
work up early and went work early to buy stuff for "the next day sentosa"... lunch also rush eat finish go buy tanning oil and so..... end up... not going already.... hais. nvm.... was quite emo~ went hougang eat with fren den went home. tata~ den mmi~ went to "play mahjong"...... ahh...
dun feel like bloging more.. i think some prob with my keyboard..

imissyouu~
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i cant wait to kill all the lizardss..